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`Greatest problem So... secretly keeping a blog hoping some people will read it and at the same time hope people dont stalk it.. contradicting but its ok~ so the best way i've found to solve it is..... dont tell anybody! tada~! come applause for the smart ass. badam tss~ hahaha! if someone ever finds this~ hoho it would mean he/she is my bestie or bf! stalking my lappy till this extend omg~ O: unless its found by chance which the possibility is so close so close to zero! wakakaka anyways.. back to the topic :3 yeaps im stalking meiping.. shhhh dont tell her hahaha! read her blog.. as negative as ever.. no offence but thats usually how she thinks.. chat wif her over whatsapp the other day and i got really fed up RAWR! >:( i said sth like "all plant extracts solutions are good for the hair" cos of some variety show influence and some salesperson trying to make us buy their hair products.. claiming how different it is and how it helps the hair.. so thats the conclusion i came up with.. based on some research and common sense knowing the hair need to 'breathe' to grow firm and strong.. plants extracts does remove unnecessary hair chemicals in common shampoos and since these extracts are more natural and generally more expensive they should be good.. then! mp starting bombarding me with all the cons! saying they are not necessarily good and this and that. oh pls! i know that obviously! u dint need to read my sentence word for word! when i said that to you was only because i feel that those extracts are generally better than usual hair shampoos! and just sharing with you my experience, what i heard and what i think.. well.. her debates got me fed up for a while but very quickly my temper went down. just in a flash. why? because thats her personality. come praise me! im such a good fren to realise that hahaha! jk~ mp likes to think immediately of why it is not good. she blames that as her 'sense of negativity' but i see that as a skill. she can easily beat world class debaters with her power of bullshytting. im serious. i've never won. if she had received training on debating she would have been invincible! oh continuing to stalking her blog.. she likes to see her world and her change in fashion sense as 'attempts to fit in the norm the society' no doubt it is true to some sense.. buying a sports outfit so u wont get weird stares when wearing old tees and pants.. buying it for sports or jus to avoid being outcast? why u wan the outfit? to avoid stares. to make urself comfortable. to make urself not noticeable. to blend in. why not? why shld i spend the extra money? not like i exercise frequent. why shld i fit in? y shld i give in the social norm? when u dwell into why not.. u forget why yes.. why not has no answers. they are questions. so why yes? to make urself ur heart at ease. whats the biggest problem? to be or not to be. blending into social norm. to be or not to be. special. unique. in nice words. not so nice? weirdo. insane. outcast. an artist an actor. they love to be different. they dont want to be like the others. they strive for attention. look at how special im! i can be like any of u. i act. i play. i eat. i sleep. im different from the other actors! this is how unique im. so positive. in other negative words u r jus happy being a weirdo and enjoys ppl looking at u being a weirdo. be myself. they are doing it quite extremely. wearing old tees and pants make u feel like being judged negatively. wearing tshirts u buy in kids section at the age of 20s make u feel like being judged negatively again. so u want to change the style of clothes. if u wan to view it as being fitting in/giving up on individualism. fine. because u dont wan strange glares. it is the biggest factor of why u chose to be. u dont wan extra unnecessary attention. thats what bothering u most. the glares/attention. it is not a form of enjoyment like for the actors. blaming it on seasonal fashion. women's fashion. so complicated so many categories so many styles. but theres no point anymore. u chose. because u chose to be. to make yourself at ease without stereotypical stares/attention. so why start blaming them now? (: now all you have to do is to make yourself feel even better! (: party clothes? night clothes? day clothes? school clothes? since they are already categorized. might as well play along. with their fixed sets of rules, fixed views of fashion. play along. choose within the limited category. one that makes u look good. to be judged positively. they wan to play by the rules. we play with them. party clothes are party clothes. kids clothes are kids clothes. i feel so proud of myself typing all these nonsense down. hahaha! >:) i might have made wrong judgement or accused you of some things. maybe u are jus like me. jus wanna share the views. wanna share things that are in contrast. very good! but brains are slow and ideas can never be 100% carried over. im not a worm in ur brain so i dont know wad is ur true intention behind ur words. so it is very VERY SUPER IMPORTANT that you tell me. put it in words for me to understand. why u are saying so. i hope telepathy can be 'invented' someday. it would be a much more understanding world. |