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`Updates! oddly i thought i would have blogged about JAC camp and SPMS camp.. but nothing was written down.. strange.. anyways JAC camp.. im actually quite glad its a slacker camp but i dont like how it is so not organised.. the first day everyone have no idea what they should do as programmers so i basically sat around the whole day.. then at night they started saying stuffs about initiative.. please lor its not i dont want to do anything.. you could have just relied on us and ask us to do something.. i already volunteered myself to this camp means im willing to contribute isnt it? then why wouldnt you ask us to do our job? anyways glad to have made through the camp with new friends made.. wai cheong, yue yu and yen ting ^^ wan lu liang yue and qiu tong ((: moving on to the SPMS camp.. at first bloody reluctant to do all the activities but after that i realise our AR subcomm is actually not that bad.. its a little awkward that i went home for most of the nights.. but oh well.. august.. first time to get drunk with exo at jean le's house.. oops x: though eugene tried to keep me from getting myself drunk but i refused his help cos i really wanted to know my standard.. after that experience.. i think im just someone with small significance after all.. shortly after.. went on jb trip with exo! awesome~! sang karaoke and played the laser war expensive but super fun! and awkwardly took taxi with cj, eileen and jinhui.. xuying became queen of the night with all that money she brought over.. hahaha! its super fun day (: scrolling instagram and i thought i have never posted any photo with exo for the entire year.. oh no~ not that i dont love them but i am lazy to repost the same picture again and again.. sorry~ >< forgive me please~ school started soon enough and i was quite excited to get used to my new life without a hall.. its quite tiring as the lessons are so early.. applied for a part-time at the SPMS office while pon-ing my achem lecture which i thought i could as achem has always been my strong module.. slowly and slowly i started pon-ing more and more because its not worth the time to travel to school and attend all the lectures.. ): totally regret it now.. the recorded lectures cant be cleared in time! mostly due to my laziness.. so now i totally gave up on watching all my achem lectures cos the content are easily understood.. i seek help from shi ting and borrowed her notes to copy.. tyvm ting! (((: ichem is sth that everyone is complaining hard.. which i agree too.. but i will strive for my A in that module.. i just hope nothing strange is tested.. and google please take care of me and my questions.. polymer isnt quite easy either.. the lecturer.. cui.. one moment she says its linear.. a few seconds later she said actually it could be branched.. but still linear.. the answer.. im like wtf? can u just say u will accept both answers? and calculation problems.. she just said oh and u need this K value which i forgot to give you. ok here.. now solve the question -.- which she expected that we would have tried before hand.. zz enough about school.. lets move on to relationships.. at first i felt me and mp's friendship are straining at the start.. but actually its like that one laa.. if there isnt much struggle there wont be any strengthening.. but for me.. unhappiness is easily erased so please realise it and dont be bothered by my mood.. if im unhappy about sth i can forget it and pretend it dint happen the very next day.. its just something so trivial.. what for should i be bothered by it right? :3 anw.. mp and forest like progressing eh? not bad not bad.. jyjys! ^^ u have my support! oh and xx & gr.. last long k.. :3 yiqian and jeanle.. its quite shocking! and i rmb i embarressed myself during the drinking session for my insensitivity.. omg -.- i shld just shut up alr hais.. i knew yq is getting attached but i dint know they wouldnt come clean.. hais.. why hide it when people are happy for you and hope everything works out.. T_T nvm.. im just a outsider anyways.. its ok~ ): no guys will like a girl who is all smarty-pants thats why i dont have much affinity.. and the way i talk.. omg~ T_T just kill me already.. now i have to try and act cute and behave more like a girl.. haowen is really the only gentlemen who will treat girls nicely with class.. the more guy friends i make i realise each of them are so different.. i know i have that aura that makes me pretty hard to approach.. i cant change my 'cursed' sad face i have.. and i cant change over night to make myself shine.. sometimes i really want to dig into people's brain and find out how i look in their eyes.. i want an aura that i can charm people.. i wan to learn from haowen and priscilla to charm people without losing class.. i want to be well-mannered and deal with adults easily.. ok im jealouss ): i believe its something that can be trained.. i want to be more stupid in guy's eyes so i can gain more attention.. hais.. but i've been like this for 20years.. im not pretty and i cant talk.. what makes me a marriageable candidate? i think i dont.. i almost never use female charms and its weird if i start doing it all of a sudden.. everytime i think im flirting i want to run back to my shell.. hais T_T i really need to tone down that proud aura i have.. i want to be more humble.. one more month to the date... if there is nothing.. i will get a hint.. i will distance myself.. and never to attempt to go into that boundary again.. |