mine me my*
|
hellos stalker
 SOmetimes itS EaSier to Do ThinGs iN its SimPLe WayS.. History
credits
skin made by me {fisha} and thanks for them , electricshock , tiqah ,
zara , wana and afiqah for awesome tuto and freebies.
|
'Questions i hate "Are you happy working here?" "If you are not, you shouldnt be here." kns lor. I not happy also need to work here wad. Kns srsly. Its a super stressful job and i absolutely hate failures. I dont want to be labelled as 'someone who cant do it'. Thats my ego and i hate it when people poke into it. Kns. I wonder why I dint see this as a mentally threatening job when i first signed up? Because that wasnt my motive! I dint want to be a sales person, i only wanted to get paid from the studying and clearing my three appointments and purchasing them for my family. Even though that may sound just like an excuse. But now, all my brain wants is just to run away from the job and super negatively urged me to think of extreme way of running away from reality. "What do you want for your future?" fuck this. Im NOT money-driven even though i like being rich. I just freaking want a simple life! To stay close to my family members and build one myself. I think going through the simplest life cycle is what depicts LIFE. I can dont travel even after seeing that all that TV promoting tourism. Becos Thats just freaking few seconds of scenery and.. Thats it! End. No more. Wad next. Anyway i guess this has taught me that there's no half-halfs. Not everyone can excel at two things at the same time. You have to choose. And life is full of choices. Freak that srsly. Born as a libra is the worse at decision making. And the second thing is that i hate responsibilities. I mean its not a good natured person shld say. But as the eldest, im naturally placed with more responsibility that i dint want to carry. And that face reading i had when im just a baby, makes it so much worse. Im directly and indirectly placed with financial burdens! It makes me have so much worry about whether i can earn enof to support my family and my unreliable brother. Its not that i wan to be unfilial, but that amt of stress and responsibilities! I just want to live in a cave. Live in a mountain without animals just plants. I dont need to have social contact and all i need to worry is my plants aka food source. I wanna visit bermuda triangle and just vanish. |